131: 22 Weeks Pregnant: Heart Opening in the Jungle

First off, to our total surprise, it's a BOY!!! It's as if he was showing off in full view to make SURE we knew who he was lol - she spotted his little man within a minute! Just goes to show ya - even a strong intuition can be wrong (especially with a baby, I'm sure he'll keep us on our toes!) You may have also noticed the date change - they moved up our due date by about a week (now due May 9th) though she also said many first time pregnancies are often up to two weeks late. So there we are! The first name is Campbell (following Calvin's family tradition of the firstborn being the CEH initials, he's had that name ready forever, so I'm giving him this one!) We're still playing with the middle name, but the front runner is Elder (a sacred tree in Celtic and African traditions, as well as a "wise" word, and he is the firstborn, so...) So for now at least, Campbell Elder Harvey is well on his way!

So being back in Peru feels FANTASTIC. It feels very much part of the flow - I had a dream months ago to come for this group. I'm so excited to be able to introduce Campbell in the womb to my world/his future world out here! And Luco has recently had a baby as well (who is crazy adorable by the way!), so as weird as it may seem to have two ex's with their babies of other partners all together in one place, it's just not that weird. It's our big, growing Infinite Light family. And one of these days the time will be right for Calvin to come and become part of it as well:)

So like I said, I feel cleaned up and very excited for the upcoming group:) I've noticed an interesting thing happening as of late as well - I feel like my heart may be expanding to a new capacity. It's little things - like this street dog with fleas I normally would've said hi to but not necessarily petted (sorry if that makes me sound like an ass, just being honest) but his energy just called out to me for some love. So I petted him for like half an hour, and happened to have a hard boiled egg on me (don't ask) so I gave him my egg too. He was so happy - putting his head on my knee - even jumped up and licked my face. Animals have been drawn to me extra since being pregnant, but the desire to just love something for the sake of loving it - more than normal, to a new level. I feel like this is part of the energetics of pregnancy preparing me for a child. How beautiful is that!?

I'm also finding myself being sillier, lighter. I can still go deep when necessary, but just doing stupid funny things that make myself and/or whoever is around laugh (like me and Tatiana dancing in the hammock on the boat, cracking Jolker up). Just fun for fun's sake, like you do naturally when little kids are around. My inhibitions are down. I just don't care if I look stupid, or like a gringa tourist, or a whatever. I'm just doing my thing, and it's easy, and light, and fun. I don't think Life is supposed to be this hard, and where I can make it easier by letting go a little into my childlike self - why not?

So anyway, I am loving life these days. First trimester feels like light years away, and I feel healthy, happy, and in a beautiful preparation process on every level! What more can you ask for? And my job at the university came through with a whole lot of extra hours for me for the next semester, so I'll be able to help bank money so we can breathe a little easier during the hello baby period. Universe is providing, and we are both extremely grateful! I'll be working my little arse off, but I feel confident I'll find a healthy balance between taking care of my body/mind and bringing in some moolah.

Anyway short and sweet, that's all I got for now! Will write again once we get back from our group in the village! Much love everyone:)

Peace:)
Meghan